If I focus, I can hear the instant a bead of water cracks into its frozen halt. I sense the moment the wind takes notice of me and I calmly step out of its way. Sometimes, I can glance into the tree line and give an exact count as to how many sets of eyes are on me at that moment. I see things I shouldn't be able to see. I know things I shouldn't know.
I suppose, I should explain...
Recently, I watched a young deer walk away from its body as it was ripped to shreds by a pack of dogs. Walked right passed me. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. He passed close enough that if I were of the mindset touch him, I could have… but I didn't. When it comes to the supernatural, I tend to keep my hands to myself.
What else is unique about my… situation?
Oh! I now have the ability to experience the color of temperature. I know it's crazy but I assure you, it's actually a lot of fun. The brighter the hue, the warmer the sensation. A blizzard, for example, is a tropical light-show for a feller with my, gift(?). I see in full-spectrums or sometimes in inverse color schemes too. It's pretty wild and seems to switch on me at random. The last time it snowed, I stood outside in awe with my mouth open throughout the entire storm. I'm a dork like that. Nature just wows me sometimes (especially now).
My attitude has also dramatically shifted to such an extreme that at first, I thought I had accidentally achieved enlightenment. I humored myself with thoughts that I had stumbled into the unknowable and was rewarded with this, "second-sight" my eyes see the world with now. It's like nothing I've ever experienced before. I haven't been to sleep yet but I'm not tired, really. This is energizing and I wouldn't want to miss a moment of it.
I don't want to give you the wrong idea here. It's not like I'm skipping around the forest, singing songs of joy with the birds. It's actually quite lonely here. Despite all the incredible wildlife and stunning landscape, it still would be nice to share it with someone. I have my sword on me at all times, which is awesome. Extremely comforting to have her in my hands but someone to talk to would still be nice. The good news is that it's almost always overcast here, which is my absolute favorite weather, so I'm not complaining about that either.
That reminds me... I forgot to tell you about another awesome superpower I have now. I can literally feel everything from the inside out. Meaning, if I get next to a fire, heat radiates from my belly out (like a microwave). It's incredibly useful (especially if you pair it with my converting light-into-temp skill). I am having a lot of fun messing with the combinations lately. I can also run up a tree like nobody’s business as well. Makes me feel like the ninja of the forest. I guess my childhood dream to become a master of the blade also came true, as I am certainly an expert at this point (especially after this much practice). It does make me wonder, though...
I just wish I knew how long I’ve been dead though. Like, days? Weeks? Years? It's really hard to tell time in this place and I'm starting to worry about my girl. I can remember every line in her face and think of her constantly. It’s with thoughts of her that I finally confirmed I was indeed, deceased. I can acutely remember the feeling of her touch... and you can't synthesize that.
To say I was bummed when I figured it out would be an understatement.
I hope my Queen is getting along okay without me…
Other than that, I like it here.